Loss

I feel like shit today. I'm in a foul mood, and I barely slept again last night, so I am exhausted. I must look like shit, too, because two people have asked me if I am feeling OK. I made Munchkin sleep with me in hopes it would help me to sleep, but it didn't. And she was up because she was excited for the first day of school, so neither of us helped the other sleep at all.

The problem is that I lost something. Or rather, I 'misplaced' it, and may have really lost it, I don't know yet. I suppose I could tell you what it is, but I don't want to, and for the moment I would rather be intentionally vague and purposely mysterious. It's more fun that way. I also thought about writing one of those password-protected secret posts, but I don't feel like figuring out how, and I am not sure what I would write anyway.

It is something that means a great deal to me and which I will be miserable without. It carries no monetary value, or technically even any sentimental value, but it is an important part of me...a part that I don't want to lose. I kinda know where it is, but I don't know what I have to do to find it. I know what I could do, but I don't know if I can do that, or if I want to, of if I would be happy if I did.

I have to point out my own stupidity in losing it. I wasn't paying enough attention to it, and I guess I just lost track. Usually, I am very good about keeping track of the things that matter to me, but I guess I fucked up on this one. So it is my fault and that makes it all that much worse. Losing it is horrible, and thinking about not being able to find it is virtually unbearable.

I don't know when I will have a chance to look for it. I hope it's soon.And I don't know really what I plan on doing to find it anyway. I hope I think of something.